I'm a mom??

yesterday i had to take sydney into the doctor because she was super warm (apparently she had a temperature of a 102) and was obviously not feeling well. she slept on my chest and basically cuddled all day. she also wasn't eating very well. now i know that the reason for all this is because she caught some virus (i'm blaming the gym daycare...i've worked at a gym daycare before and i know that it's not very clean!) that is going to take about three days to get through her system. oh, and she has blisters on the back of her throat.

poor little kid.

i had one of those moments when i was in the examination room waiting for the doctor to come in. you know the ones i'm talking about...the moment where you're afraid that someone is going to come in and yell, "you're a fraud! how DARE you think you're a

____ "(fill in the blank with mom, or whatever you are right now). apparently doctors have this fear too. it's called "Impostor's Syndrome." kirk told me that some doctors basically are just waiting to be found out. they think they are impostors, even though they have been to four years of medical school, x years of residency and fellowship and blah blah blah. but i digress.

i had the feeling that i was an impostor holding this sick baby girl in the doctor's office. i couldn't be a mom, responsible for the well-being of this little human. nuh uh. they've got the wrong woman. i got a little panicky. i haven't felt this way about being a mom in a while. it used to happen more when syd was first born.

just to let y'all know, syd is just fine. she was laughing and crawling after the kitty last night. she seemed to perk up after the doctor gave her motrin. i think mom was more freaked out than she was.

enjoy some pics of the little munchkin and the big...munchkin... :)